I am more than my sexual preference.
Please stop sexualizing me.
My choice to be who I am is exactly that, my choice.
I grew up loving people heart to heart but now I am labelled and sexualized by society to a stereotype. But I am way more than that. I'm you. I am Human, so be Human to me.
I am a two spirit.
I am Female energy and Male energy.
Throughout my teenage years it confused me a lot because I was bullied and called names like Chris girl, Fag, ballet dancer (which I was for a while so I never really got that one? lol) Fudge packer, shirt lifter.. while the bullying continued, and I got great at hiding it. This was YEARS before I even knew about myself, school kids were so psychic.
However, I wasn't any of the names they were calling me. I was so much more. No matter how many times I heard the word "Gay" thrown at me it didn't ring true because in fact I wasn't. I grew up knowing that love was heart to heart. It's never just a Man loving a Man or a Woman loving a Woman, it's a soul loving a soul, which we are. We all are. It's all down to the chemistry, energy and the heart, not the meat suit we walk around in. I knew that so early in life. I fell for people who my heart loved. Not what was between their legs.
To me, my Female and Male energy was my advantage. In moments of weakness I called upon my Male energy and in moments of tenderness, Female. It's Yin and Yang. It's not just needed, it's essential for this Earth to blossom.
We are the changing ones, some say more evolved; the people that can call upon Female or Male energy in situations where needed. We can be completely feminine acting and then completely male. Why it's the deemed a weakness???
Learn to love your masculine AND feminine energy within you, it's powerful. It's your strength. I ask you... who do you want running this world? Someone that ONLY understands one side or someone who knows both? So who really are the powerful ones?
If a 7 year old boy wants to wear red nail polish on his fingers, let him.
If a girl wants to wear a combat jacket, let her.
If a young boy wants to take the pink back pack to school, let him.
It's a color!! That's all.
When I was younger I seriously felt more evolved like I was the next step in evolution. I knew I was soul and I enjoyed hanging with guys or going to sleep overs with girls. It didn't matter, but when it was with girls I was made to feel bad. Like I was less of a boy.
I felt open to both energies and I understood that meant being more open hearted and understanding, to have more empathy, which this world desperately needs. It's not a burden, it's a blessing.
Early on in our child hood we are quickly cut down and bruised by life when people, sometimes even family, push their beliefs onto us walking around unconscious to this beautiful gift we've been given. Each other.
Is it worth all this murderous hatred??
Homophobia? Please let's not be so simple. We are dying. Our Brother's and Sisters are dying. Right now. What is it going to take to make people wake up?
The persecution comes from the people that don't understand themselves. They are projecting their fear onto you so they don't have to face their pain. You are a reflection of them and they don't like it.
Choose your preference by choosing who you are with pride. Show your authentic self without shame and without apologies and when the murderous hate comes knocking at your door remember they are angry at something inside themselves. Not you.
The hard thing to work out is how to deal with all of this but the best way to deal with this brutal backlash that we are experiencing right now is to honor those who are dying, and the best way to do that is to celebrate who you are... with no filter.
Remember the stars are under our feet too, not just in the sky, don't forget where you are and what your purpose is, hating others is not your journey.
Oh and nowadays just saying "I'm gay" is a political statement and if that makes me an activist then HELL YES I'M AN ACTIVIST!
I am made in Earth, from Earth, like you.
Be Human.
