Define What Makes You - Never Give Up

I've been in my head too much lately. Trying to fight my way out.

But instead of wallowing I'm just going to repeat this to myself (a friend sent me this) 

"You are right in seeking out the best life you can have. You are right to define what makes you happy and then pursue that. It is right and it is just. Letting go of your dreams to pursue comfort is not right, not right at all. Maybe when you are seventy. But you've still got some work to go and many miles before you sleep"

You know it's funny. Life. You've gotta laugh. I think after a certain amount of time we all start to just realize that's it's going to change and it's going to take you with it whether you like it or not and sometimes it's best just to roll with the punches. 

OR,

You can fight back.


I've seen myself deal with anxiety so badly that it's made me ill. I've watched my Father pass away and held some things back because, at the time I felt that that I shouldn't mention or it's the wrong timing. Wrong timing? That was the perfect time.

Too many times in the past have I kept my mouth shut then lost the chance to make a change.

I'm dying....
Just like all of you.
We're all dying.

SO what are you going to do about it?

What am I going to do about it?

I tell you what. I'm going to NOT give up. Ever. Wanna make that promise together?
I'm never giving up.

Today I was driving home and I was thinking about versions of my life that I could have right now. My life in the UK. My life here in the US. A life in Thailand, maybe somewhere else in America? I can choose anyone of these but I choose to stay in LA. I've fought with that decision for about a year now. Going back and forth with myself, in my head... it's a mess in there sometimes. It feels like a battle in my head.

Would my life be better back home? Does my music need more inspiration? Am I doing something wrong? 


Today I promised myself a few things..

TO NEVER GIVE UP (because without music and without creativity I might as well be dead)
TO LIVE "RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW"
ALWAYS BE HONEST (no matter how much it may hurt)
BELIEVE IN MY MESSAGE

I have a song in me, and it's not for sale on iTunes, it's my inner song, I'm starting to find it and it doesn't fit into a 3 minute melody. It's way bigger. 

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